Every day there seems to be a new version of ourselves, reinventing old habits into new rituals. Transmuting old energy that doesn’t serve us anymore. Adopting new protocols for feeling whole.
I’ve been around the block enough to know what works for me doesn’t necessarily work for everyone, and I’m still here to share my fleeting bits of wisdom, should you want to listen. No pressure, as ever. But I’m here. To hear or share. Bottom line: no one should have to walk down this road alone. #groupeffort
Speaking of alone, isn’t it amazing how alone you can feel in a roomful of people?
I’ve been ‘alone’ for a while now, on many levels; and while of course it has been lonely, it’s also been refreshing. To have the time and space to truly connect with your soul and your purpose. To feel out all the directions and then pick one and go boldly into it, all alone, is a transformative experience. I don’t even know how it’s all happened really, and I question if I’m moving in the ‘right’ direction sometimes? Still, I figure, I’ve come this far, why turn back now? Surely it’s just getting interesting.
When I began this journey, I remember three very distinct moments of my life, right around 2006.
One moment, was when my college roommate informed me that I really had to ‘become’ MissConception on stage in order for the delivery to be affective. “Sara” couldn’t relay the ‘message’ correctly, but MissConception could spray it loud and clear.
Second moment of rapture, at a Galactic show at Wakarusa and then again at Liberty Hall in Lawrence, KS, I heard a voice in the universe INSISTING that I had to go ‘hip-hop’. Whatever that meant. It wasn’t an option. It was a life style. And I was to make it my own and inject it with all the love and compassion and wisdom and wit I could muster, so that this beautiful art form could once again be seen for the awe-powerful and spiritual commune that it was. Storytelling and sharing is what our tribal communities were built on. And we must take that power back and use it to heal. Challenge accepted.
Third pivotal moment of life-force hit me at the once-in-a-lifetime conscious festival event called Coalescence. I cannot even begin to tell you all the details, because you frankly don’t have time for such minutia, but between Alex and Allyson Gray, Daniel Pinchbeck, Govinda, Damien Marley, Rabbit in the Moon, The Tree of Life Rejuvenation Center, the magical forest, Professor Nightlife Jones and then my crew of friends that took a chance on something unknown, it became apparently obvious that I was on a path. A meaningful path collecting wisdom and bits of experiences that would be carried out in all directions and forms across this universe and one day would lead me to my life’s calling (which I still DOUBT, even with ALL THE CLARITY).
Why is it so hard to trust YOURSELF?
This last weekend I had the privilege of stepping synchronistically into a roll as producer of an international Prayer for Peace festival called Earthdance. Tucked away in the South Bay redwoods, a group of charming individuals came together in celebration, ecstatic dance and prayer. They took a chance on this experience.
Here, at the Lupin Lodge, together we learned about the power of connection and interaction. We meditated. We danced! We studied the implications of community on conflict and how to mange that, and people explored the values of consent. We asked the hard questions and had the difficult conversations.
It was amazing to actually SEE consciousness EVOLVING real time. And it reminded me of that first event Coalescence, where we were a small group, but with great power and intention.
Point being, for the first time, in a long time, after feeling very lost, I found myself in the EXACT place I was supposed to be. I was doing my life’s work, which filled up my soul and allowed me to serve others with that same energy.
WHAT A RELEIF!
To actually feel in tune with the ebbs and flows of this powerful and chaotic energetic ocean of life. It’s taken a lot of trust, and a lot of failure to keep moving forward.
Someone told me just yesterday that a ‘master’ is someone who has made ALL THE MISTAKES. Bring. It. On.
Ok, just kidding, I’m really rather done with making mistakes. I still welcome the lessons and value the teachings.
“So what exactly IS IT that I am doing with my life” (…my mother is asking. Hi Mom!)
It’s what I’ve always done, which is to bring the people I love and cherish together and enable them to commune. With an intention. Maybe in prayer or dance? Maybe just to share a meal? But clearly, I am a planner, above all else. Maybe an herbalist? Certainly a dancer and poet. Artist, dare I say?
And the plan is to keep chipping away at all of these functions that fill my heart and soul, hopefully making the world an ever so slightly better place. And I’m going to work towards holding my own space for you all to come and visit someday.
In the meantime, if you need me, hopefully you know where to find me.
Love,
Serendipity
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